Before going into what happened, let me commit to start the healthy process over again.
What did happen was a combo of events. It started Sunday night. I got knocked down in my job as a parent, and it hit me really hard. The kids are fine. In fact I went to bad last night very much at peace. Last week, though, something happened that made it tough for me to sleep Sunday into Monday. The weight of the events had me down all day Monday, as did the lack of sleep. You ever feel like a failure as a parent? Yeah, it was that.
My feelings about my kids got better later in the day, once I resolved to let God finally have a hand in dealing with things and when it became clear that things were perhaps not as bad as I had feared.
Still, I was very tired, which is never a good recipe for living healthy. Actually on Monday I did fine until that night, when I began a round of endless snacking. I got a good night’s sleep Monday night, but I was coming off of a week of vacation. I love the time off, but I had accomplished a lot healthwise and going back to the workplace I often feel like I’m scrambling to contribute what I should. It’s like I have to forget about everything except work. Being distracted didn’t help.
So all last week I ate like I was in crisis, which resulted in a massive weight gain, and feeling sick into the weekend, something I only began to recover from on Sunday.
The silver lining in this is that after a week of massive weight gain it’s often easy to lose most, if not all, of it quickly. So I’m back on track, or I am committed to being back on track. The half marathon is in my sights. In times past I’ve mentioned moments where it would have been tempting to quit. Often during this whole affair I’ve thought of you and it has helped motivate me to stay focused. That didn’t work last week, because in the end when times are extremely tough I have to do this for me.
So I am. I’m in this for me. I felt great a week ago. I will feel great again, even better. And now I’ve got something to prove, to the doubters, most notably myself. I can do this. I am doing it. Next week’s story will be much more fulfilling, for me.
Beginning weight: 404
This week’s weight: 387
Last week’s weight: 378.8
One week change: +8.2
Total weight lost: -17
Weight loss goal: 205
Percentage body weight goal: 50.5 percent
Percentage body weight lost: 4.2 percent
Percentage of goal lost: 8.3 percent
Plans for this week: